Prove me wrong

I don't remember when it started...

But, I still am afraid.

Being single for more than two years,

& this is the reason behind.

You think you found the right one,

You think you may have a try to see whether it works or not,

You fell in love, you get used with the companion of this person,

you get used to the phone ringing all day long...

& the next day,

this person just leaves because of some personal reasons.

Your life turned upside down,

in just a few seconds time.

The pain in the heart, you'll never know.

How it tortured me till I felt my heart stopped for a few seconds.

I left someone before, very sudden.

I wanted to say sorry,

because I never know it hurts so badly.

I've been through,

So now I know.

For two years, not that there's no admirers around.

Just that I wasn't over it yet.

I don't hold onto relationships if someone wants it to end,

but I do hold onto feelings.

It still hurts, still make me cry, still feel the pain like it was just yesterday.

It was, but not now.

Not pain anymore.

I fear getting close with people,

I keep a distance no matter whoever it is,

I stop myself from loving someone even I have a slight feeling,

I just... don't wanna feel "end of the world" anymore.

I want someone who appreciates me for who I am,

Not making me feel like I'm the worst girl in the world.

Because I'm not.

I become so careful... So careful...

To make sure the next person will really appreciate me.

But I will never be sure of it.

Never.

I always thought that I'm ready to move on.

I am, even right now.

But every time it comes to decision,

I decided to let go any possibilities to begin a relationship.

I fear of losing it before I even started it.

I need someone with great patience this time.

Proving to me that you'll love me right.

Prove me that I'm wrong to fear of getting close to you.